I can’t focus lately. There’s something crawling underneath the surface of my skin, a restlessness made of impending discontent and fatalism that’s threatening to bubble back up. I do a pretty good job of keeping its intensity under wraps, or at least trying to, but there are days when the feeling barrels towards me in a bid to challenge my authority over it. The restlessness keeps me from thinking about the task at hand, and directs my thoughts to all the tasks I haven’t done. The tasks I might never get to do. All the conversations I should or shouldn’t have. My irritability grows.
I try to silence that din of worry with music, but sometimes the wrong music amplifies the urgency of my mood, paralyzing me in a cacophony of what ifs and why should Is. There are good songs and bad songs, just as there are good days and bad days.
Running through promo emails to quiet the sound in my head, I clicked on the subject line heralding Lens Mozer’s “All My Friends”. In a moment, all the wanting, the stress, the illogical cycle of thoughts—it faded into the background. The music gave me exactly what I needed. “Just don’t stop,” Lens Mozer says. “Turn around and see the sunshine“.
Sometimes music doesn’t soothe the freneticism of anxiety, and sometimes it does. “All My Friends” helped me today. Maybe it will help you too.